I will begin by sayin i'm so sorry everyone for your losses.
A letter to little man
I got you when you were 5 weeks old. The shelter was overflowing, I agreed to help out-then kept you. You were wild! Loved climbing, running, jumping and sleeping on our laps. I was so proud of you, showed everyone on here, and you won pet of the month! Proud mummy moment!
Remember when you got your head stuck in the cereal box? Everyone apart from you found it hilarious. You went in a sulk for hours! Or when you came back from the vet after THAT op-you didn't come near me for 2 days! I know, i'm rambling on.
It's been 6 months, it's time for me to find some sort of closure. I still can't think about you without getting that lump in my throat and the blurry vision due to tears. We are unable to imagine humans are capable of such acts of malice. Unfortunately they are and I will never forget the day I received the call saying your body had been found. It tore me apart.
You will hate me for moving us to that rotten place. It was the ghetto and I am so sorry we ended up there. I had no choice.
When I received the call I broke down, I had to put a brave face on for Rhianna. She kept asking where you were, I had to tell her you were away to stay with your mummy. She's only 3, she wouldn't understand. You followed her everywhere, sat on her lap, watched her when she played. She still asks about you, says you should come here for a holiday. God this is so hard.
You helped me through our difficult period and for that I am grateful. I just wish you didn't have to pay the price.
You will be happy to know I got Rhianna out of there, we are now in a better, safer place. I wish you were here, you'd love the huge garden and the peace and quiet.
Apollo, not a day goes by without me thinking about you and blaming myself for what happened. Once again I am so sorry. People can be so cruel if I knew beforehand what it was like I would never have moved us. Unfortunately, my crystal ball has never worked.
I have said my bit and now I need to go. Diesel will look after you up there. I know you're having a great time, chasing that ball, climbing trees.
Until we meet again,
RIP little man