OK Bluesand, I hate to be the voice of reason here, if you run someone over with a car while intoxicated does it still count as you having run someone over?
You've let yourself get into a situation for which you weren't ready, with the support of your mother. Sorry guys, I don't see this as being the same as learning to use alcohol responsibly while young, for that it is way too late.
I grew up in Germany, all my family is still there, I was allowed to grow up learning about the responsible, as well as irresponsible use of alcohol from the time I was a small child. Raising my children here in North America I allowed this in our home as well, they were not suddenly given permission at around 16 yrs to drink unsupervised at a party.
Oh, yes, I have blundered too, my children have as well, but you were asking for help how to go about this without blundering, and threw caution in the wind. You are lucky it was only a kiss that was stolen!
The reason I am so harsh right now is to hopefully help you not to repeat the danger you've put yourself in. The reason I am so harsh right now is because I have been called, in the middle of the night, out of my bed, to go and pick up one of my children's 17 year old female friends, who had just been raped at a party....by SOMEONE SHE KNEW AND TRUSTED! She was too ashamed to call her own mother, bless her heart, and I ended up making phone calls to the hospital at one in the morning. They called a social worker while we made our trip there! I waited with her until the social worker arrived, it was saddening, maddening and made me feel so inadequate sitting there with this wounded girl whom I had known since she was in Kindergarden!
I think you cheated yourself, Bluesand, it was a mistake, you can maybe put this kiss in a different category, and give yourself the chance to experience the next kiss the way you wanted to in the first place!
I'll go eat worms now!