Not a good attitude. We all make the SAME mistake and it happens to the best of us. You just need to be more paitent with the cycling and give it time to complete and add the fish in. Add two at a time. Also any trouble you are having, we are all here to help you. If you got a question, ask away. Don't feel bad just because two of your fish died. It sucks, I know, but it doesn't have to be the end of your fishkeeping hobby.